Enough

Recently I’ve felt so much pressure to do more, to be more. Sometimes I look at my life and wonder, what am I really accomplishing? Does it mean anything? Is it enough?

It’s such a hard battle, fighting the pressure, expectation, and constant comparison of this world—especially in college.

I find myself looking at others around me to measure how I’m doing or where I come up short. But there’s always someone doing more, someone more involved, someone with higher grades. There’s always someone who seems to care more, someone who serves more.

So I find myself filling the silence and the stillness with other things. Maybe to feel like I’m busy or maybe just as distraction.

I too easily forget that we’re all different, that God’s plan and His path for each of us is so specific and unique. What He’s calling me to isn’t what He’s calling you to. And the season I’m in right now is unlike yours. We trip up when we compare, when we give in to the pressure, and when we start to believe that somehow we’re not enough because our lives don’t look like everyone else’s.

Don’t compare your season of sowing to their season of reaping, your season of planting to their season of harvest, your season of silence to their season of speaking.

What if God has been calling you to rest in Him, to sit silently in His presence, but you’ve missed it chasing after all the ‘other things’? Because I have.

I haven’t written much, because I’ve felt like I have nothing to say. But that’s so wrong. The Lord has had so much He’s wanted to say, but I’ve rushed past His presence. I haven’t stopped and listened in the time He’s given me, but I’ve tried to fill it instead.

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

“He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.” Ecclesiastes 3:11

When I look back on my two and a half years of college, I’m astounded at His goodness, how He’s carefully led me through seasons. He’s been so faithful—from the mountains of Northern California to Tuscaloosa, Birmingham, and in between. He’s always had a purpose and a plan for me.

He says that I am enough, not because of what other people say or don’t say, not because of my schedule or my resume, but because of Jesus. By the blood of Jesus Christ, I’m clean and whole. And He’s calling us. Stop striving, sit and rest, wait for Me to light the next step.

You know, Martha was worried and upset about many things, but Mary was found at the King’s feet. “‘Few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her’.” Luke 10:41-42

So whatever season you find yourself in, remember to listen and don’t forget to trust. It’s so easy to look around and chase what other people are chasing, but keep your eyes on the King. He knows the way for you and the way for me too.